It just struck me...I have been living life like all is well and here are no struggles in my life. This is not a correct depiction of my current life. I definitely know people may be looking into my windows at the well-put together room and feel that is the whole picture. Well, this may be a shock to some but stop looking into people's windows thinking everything is perfect.
If I could be honest, this is the way most of us are raised. It's the reason that we all know that we have someone in our family that is a habitual liar, a thief, a womanizer, a drug dealer, a drug addict and so many other things that we don't allow to be spoken in public forums. I have heard and told the line, "what happens in our house stays in our house" several times through out my life. The set-up of living a farce starts much earlier than we can even comprehend beyond our nose.
Of course I don't believe that it is done to be nefarious but out of protection of your home, family and self. Growing up we knew we were not to leave the house without our hair fixed and dressed properly. If you are not feeling well then you stay in the house and don't subject yourself to others, they don't need to see you looking bad. These types of things are taught to us and passed down from generation to generation. Unfortunately, it may set up the fairytale that you should struggle in silence or at least where others aren't able to know what you are going through.
What I am realizing as I get older is that a lot of people feel they are alone and struggling by themselves with certain issues because they are scared to reach out and ask for help, and others are scared to tell their stories for fear of being ridiculed. When someone is so willing to judge you and your situation it just means that they are insecure with themselves in certain situations and if they put the attention onto you then they can continue to live their situation in the shadows. There is a freedom in telling your story in all of it's gory details. I guarantee that it will help at least one person to know they are not alone with their struggle. For me, that's enough of a reason to tell my truth even if I look bad or not desirable in the story. I am not perfect so there are plenty of stories where I am the villain, or person of ill repute. I am ok with that because everyday I wake up I strive to make better choices and to become a better more authentic representation of my self.
I am not going to lie, I am sure there are plenty of people that will be offended as I open myself up to judgment and ridicule but I am fine with that because I know who I am and that the choices I made even yesterday don't necessarily represent the me that I will grow into tomorrow. Those same people probably already had bad or negative feelings about me so oh well. They will get over It or they won't, either way I will still be who I am.
If I could be honest, this is the way most of us are raised. It's the reason that we all know that we have someone in our family that is a habitual liar, a thief, a womanizer, a drug dealer, a drug addict and so many other things that we don't allow to be spoken in public forums. I have heard and told the line, "what happens in our house stays in our house" several times through out my life. The set-up of living a farce starts much earlier than we can even comprehend beyond our nose.
Of course I don't believe that it is done to be nefarious but out of protection of your home, family and self. Growing up we knew we were not to leave the house without our hair fixed and dressed properly. If you are not feeling well then you stay in the house and don't subject yourself to others, they don't need to see you looking bad. These types of things are taught to us and passed down from generation to generation. Unfortunately, it may set up the fairytale that you should struggle in silence or at least where others aren't able to know what you are going through.
What I am realizing as I get older is that a lot of people feel they are alone and struggling by themselves with certain issues because they are scared to reach out and ask for help, and others are scared to tell their stories for fear of being ridiculed. When someone is so willing to judge you and your situation it just means that they are insecure with themselves in certain situations and if they put the attention onto you then they can continue to live their situation in the shadows. There is a freedom in telling your story in all of it's gory details. I guarantee that it will help at least one person to know they are not alone with their struggle. For me, that's enough of a reason to tell my truth even if I look bad or not desirable in the story. I am not perfect so there are plenty of stories where I am the villain, or person of ill repute. I am ok with that because everyday I wake up I strive to make better choices and to become a better more authentic representation of my self.
I am not going to lie, I am sure there are plenty of people that will be offended as I open myself up to judgment and ridicule but I am fine with that because I know who I am and that the choices I made even yesterday don't necessarily represent the me that I will grow into tomorrow. Those same people probably already had bad or negative feelings about me so oh well. They will get over It or they won't, either way I will still be who I am.
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