Keep It Sybil

It feels like time for a confession.  I really have so many things running through my head so putting a little seems in order. I think I have said before that one of my dad's favorite verses from the Bible says examine thyself.  This used to be a hard undertaking; not so much anymore.  Oh thank God I am not the person I used to be.  This particular self examination is very hard for me but I am reminded that diamonds are only formed under pressure.  Time to shine! I can remember being about six years old, before we stopped trick or treating, and I had a bag of candy.  I ate my favorites first just like all little kids.  Well right after I finished my favorites my dad came into my room and asked for a piece of candy.  I had just eaten them all.  He wasn't upset or anything he said alright, but I felt so bad I cried for a little while.  No one had ever heard this story before now.  What this illustrates is that I was an emotional pe...

It has been such a long time since I have shared my thoughts with the one or two people who read my thoughts.  Well, I am going to make up for the lost entries.  So many things have happened in the seven plus months I have been away.  I will try to go in chronological order. When last we met, I found out a couple of weeks earlier that my husband and I were expecting.  That news hit us like a ton of bricks. I mean of course it is a joyous occasion but there are so many emotions before you get to that point if the news is unexpected.  First one for me was terror.  I had absolutely no idea how my husband would react to this news.  Once I told him I could then go into disbelief. Shoot for the previous year and a half nothing, nothing, then we get married and on our honeymoon, impregnate me? Wow, I didn't think any of my equipment still worked in that regard. Obviously,a blessing from God. Thankful then would be my next emotion.  Oh, oh oh this was a ...