Keep It Sybil

Yesterday was my parents 40th anniversary. Yep 40 years of marriage and they are still going. The days leading up to their anniversary it got me thinking about my life. Well more accurately my love life. Why has the institution of marriage alluded me? Do I have enough information to answer this question? Maybe I do and maybe I don't but I gave it that old college try. I did my math and I started dating when I was 16 years old. The boyfriend I had when I turned 16 and went on my first date with was a nice guy. He really liked me and I did him dirty to be with my next boyfriend. This guy was not such a nice guy. He had his nose and ears pierced. He smoked and had a kid. He was completely wrong for me but I didn't see it then. There would come the time that we break up and eventually he grabbed me in a parking lot and shoved me into the backseat of his car because he found out I had a new boyfriend. Well, surprise, this boyfriend was not any better than the last one. He would how...

According to the Word, the first two commandments tell us that first we must love Him with everything we are and then we must love our neighbors as we love ourselves and in doing these two things we are following His commandments. Love is an action word and for me the fact of the matter is is that actions speak louder than words. Therefore showing has been my main method of letting a person know that I love them. It has been bought to my attention that actions fall short without the words. This is really a revelation in my eyes. So what is love? There have been and still are people that ruminate over this question. What is love? I have wondered if you can truly love an inanimate object because you aren't able to get any feelings back from it. I have said and most people say that they love things that can't love them back; I love these shoes, I love this movie, I love this song. If love is a feeling it's something that makes your spirit smile and gives you joy and makes you...

I have a confession to make. It's funny because telling a secret or making a confession is a very hard thing yet once it's done that weight has been lifted and you feel a little lighter. That being said confession is just good for the soul. I know that the devil is trying his best to keep me from obtaining my destiny and this confession is getting ready to shame him because he is a liar and he will not kill or destroy me. I am taking back the power I gave him in this situation. I just had a birthday and I turned 36. I love when my birthday comes around. This year was no difference. Actually, it was a lot better than it has been in years. Partially because I spent my day getting to know a new person in my life but mostly because I have been getting to know myself. This is my real-life confession. I didn't begin to feel good about myself until I was in my 30's--I was around 32 actually. I had the most negative self-talk a person could have. My self-esteem and self-imag...