Keep It Sybil

It just struck me...I have been living life like all is well and here are no struggles in my life.  This is not a correct depiction of my current life.  I definitely know people may be looking into my windows at the well-put together room and feel that is the whole picture.  Well, this may be a shock to some but stop looking into people's windows thinking everything is perfect. If I could be honest, this is the way most of us are raised.  It's the reason that we all know that we have someone in our family that is a habitual liar, a thief, a womanizer, a drug dealer, a drug addict and so many other things that we don't allow to be spoken in public forums.  I have heard and told the line, "what happens in our house stays in our house" several times through out my life.  The set-up of living a farce starts much earlier than we can even comprehend beyond our nose. Of course I don't believe that it is done to be nefarious but out of protection of your home, ...

I have made a vow to myself to tell my truths.  I do draw a line at telling parts of my story that may infringe on someone else's rights or incriminate them in any way; Also, if I know they would just rather me not talk about them. This is why I very rarely mention my husband or our minor kids, it's a respect thing. When I was a young girl, I can't say that I envisioned my life to be what it is presently.  That's to say, as a girl growing up in the 70's and 80's, I didn't dream of being someone's wife and people's mother.  I wanted to be me.  I wanted to write and be a psychiatrist,  those were my dreams.  Being young was wasted on me. I became a mother 2 times over then years and years later, I became a wife and a mother again.  I wholeheartedly threw myself into those roles.  I regret nothing. As I grew older I just became more of who I am.  I have a secret though that I share only with a few.  Not because I am ashamed but,  bec...

The very first time I met my husband something inside was different.  I didn't see my future without this man in it. I immediately knew he was my person. I made several decisions based on the love I felt for him from my head to my toes. That was over eight and a half years ago. Lots of time to look back. People often ask for "The Proposal Story".  I never hesitate to say, well,  there never was a proposal. We were on a cruise and out to dinner after he angered me.  He says to me,  something like we should get married on Christmas. I must have been looking at him like he was crazy and he then says something like will that be good for me,  I say yes and we have dinner and finish our cruise.  It was August 2012. There was no ring or any pomp and circumstance.  I loved him and wanted to share our lives so I was fine.  We didn't tell many people. My dad was in a rehabilitation center so we told them as soon as we got back and could get there to c...