Keep It Sybil

I set out to do an end of the year wrap up and while I was organizing my thoughts, a few things came to mind. Today is, the last day of the month, the last day of the year and the last day of the decade... phew! I decided, I must go ahead and wrap all of those things up.  First up December 31, 2019. This month has been filled with so many ups and downs in my personal life.  I haff such a victorious November I would never have imagined this month ending on such a sour note.  Unfortunately, I had so many trials and negativity thrown at me that today,  I have found it hard to even stand up for myself.   I remember speaking those words to one of my closest cousins and the breath she inhaled was so sharp, I could hear her heart breaking for me. I am the one that stands up for everyone else and fights. I am on a sabbatical from that right now.  Adios December 2019, I will not miss you.  Next up the year of 2019. Refer to the previous paragraphs and appl...

Today I find myself faced with a window and a mirror.  The issue most of us have is, we would prefer to stand in front of the window. Let's be real,  the window offers more possibilities; or does it?  My mirror cousin called to check up on me today. I call her that because at various points of life we had certain situations that were basically the same. Also,  if I am on some bs she well blow my skirt up.  I do my best to keep myself surrounded by this type of person actually.  I, like many others,  hate to look too long in the mirror. The window has the ability to change what I see; the mirror only has one view.  So, my cousin didn't have to call me on any bs today but she asked me a question that, when looking in the mirror would have a different answer than gazing out the window.  Because I didn't ask her if she was ok with my blogging our conversation I won't give specifics just a general idea. If asked a question about life choices would...

As the end of the year creeps closer it brings up so many memories for me.  I feel like I shared this memory a bit before but I am going to do a little more.  The holidays and growing up.  For the first almost 6 years of my life my parents,  sister and I lived in Dover,  Delaware in base housing on the air force base.  My mom's stride of the family lived in its entirety almost,  in either Charleston or New York; Delaware sits almost right in the middle.  We did tons of traveling back and forth. This fact is the reason I have several cousin sisters and cousin brothers. We grew up together,  we loved each other and fought each other like siblings.  We also grumbled together about whichever adult was getting on our nerves at the time.  Honestly, when I was that young I don't remember Thanksgiving as the big family holiday the way it was once I became a teen. Christmas through New year was our time.  My parents drove us around to l...