Keep It Sybil

I started blogging to be transparent.  I was taught that telling my story may help someone else.  I have a short story to share.  You never know what a person is going through.  You could see them one day and not realize that the day before that something tragic may have occurred in their life.  Or, they told you they would do something and they didn't.  Now if you know that person is solid and stands by their word, why are you being them? You had the opportunity to show grace but instead you chose selfishness. I promise you that everyone wants kindness. Truly, over the past couple of years there have been situations in my life that have made things almost unbearable. Yes,  I have made attempts to improve them and that was happening until the pandemic hit.  As much as people life to say just change what you don't like, the truth is, that's not always possible immediately. Show grace.  I am never going to look like what is going on in my life ...

As I evolve and begin to deal with my self there are many things I have realized about me. I am a kind person which means that I am also nice in some regards but not in every circumstance.  Unfortunately,  my niceness has been dwindling a little over the past few years because it's been taken for granted and as a weakness. I feel good about this aspect of my being though. I figured out another aspect of myself that had been hard to swallow. I have tried to be kind to myself on this journey.  A little background,  I am my parent's youngest child, is actually just my sister and I.  I have tons of cousins in both of my parent's side, a good mix of male and female. I always tell people that I was my dad's son. I just mean that because I was his last child he taught me things that traditionally would be good things to teach a son. I love that he did that. He was always there so I always had a very positive male energy growing up. My dad was the definition of a real m...