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It has been such a long time since I have shared my thoughts with the one or two people who read my thoughts.  Well, I am going to make up for the lost entries.  So many things have happened in the seven plus months I have been away.  I will try to go in chronological order.

When last we met, I found out a couple of weeks earlier that my husband and I were expecting.  That news hit us like a ton of bricks. I mean of course it is a joyous occasion but there are so many emotions before you get to that point if the news is unexpected.  First one for me was terror.  I had absolutely no idea how my husband would react to this news.  Once I told him I could then go into disbelief. Shoot for the previous year and a half nothing, nothing, then we get married and on our honeymoon, impregnate me? Wow, I didn't think any of my equipment still worked in that regard. Obviously,a blessing from God. Thankful then would be my next emotion.  Oh, oh oh this was a great moment of my life.

On the other side, my wonderful dad, he was not doing well.  Joy and pain, it's like sunshine and rain. Which emotion wins the battle of the heart? For the first three months of my pregnancy I shared ad much as I could with my dad. This way I want letting one emotion overpower the other and I could share the joy.  Daddy was happy and proud to be having another grandchild.  During that time we found out it was a boy and he was overjoyed by that.  Now, I am happy!

Things would soon take a turn.  Not completely unexpected but definitely unwanted.  I forgot to add how my pregnancy was the hardest thing.  I was having every negative pregnancy symptom a woman could have so the pregnancy symptoms made me extremely miserable.  I prayed for time to actually fly by.  It didn't and I began to fell add though I had fallen in a hole and someone was shoveling the dirt on top of me wicket than I could get it under my feet and stomp it down.

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