Alright, my life has taken an unexpected turn in the past couple of months. So much has happened I am not even sure where the turn was or if it was for the good or the bad. I am reminded that in order to get to the other side of anything that you must go through first. That means there is a beginning, a middle and an end.
The beginnings would be that I have gained a completely new understanding of myself. In the past I didn't mind being alone. In fact I loved to spend time by myself. This wasn't because I was comfortable with myself but that I was so incredibly uncomfortable with other people. Now that I am older I spend time with myself and truly enjoy the person I am. Now that I am comfortable with myself, I am fine with being around others. I want to be around other people now but the years I have spent alone hasn't taught me how to become friendly with others. I am dealing with this issue though so I am able to socialize with any type of person. I am turning this around.
As for the middle; I am in the middle of dealing with the loss of what to me was a great friendship. This isn't the first great friendship that has ended in my life but that is part of the issue. Because it was basically the end of a long term friendship I am having to figure out if there is someone else that I can share the parts of my life with that I have almost exclusively reserved for that person. I know in my heart that I will always reserve a special place for that person but when the respect is gone and things have been said or things have been refrained from being said then the end is the only avenue that is left. I will let time lead this to its end. A heart needs a little time to heal and I am going to allow that to happen. R.I.P friendship.
Self doubt/hate is over. These things have come to an end. I have to believe in the talent that God gave me. He also tells us that we don't have to make room for our gift but our gift will make room for us. That means that what the Lord has ordained in me will be done in His name and the correct roads will be available to me.
This being said, everything works to the good so even if some of my situations may seem to be a negative one there is always a positive that can be found. I am on a constant search for the positive and I do a pretty good job of keeping that focus. I encourage all of my friends and family to do the same and search for the positivity.
The beginnings would be that I have gained a completely new understanding of myself. In the past I didn't mind being alone. In fact I loved to spend time by myself. This wasn't because I was comfortable with myself but that I was so incredibly uncomfortable with other people. Now that I am older I spend time with myself and truly enjoy the person I am. Now that I am comfortable with myself, I am fine with being around others. I want to be around other people now but the years I have spent alone hasn't taught me how to become friendly with others. I am dealing with this issue though so I am able to socialize with any type of person. I am turning this around.
As for the middle; I am in the middle of dealing with the loss of what to me was a great friendship. This isn't the first great friendship that has ended in my life but that is part of the issue. Because it was basically the end of a long term friendship I am having to figure out if there is someone else that I can share the parts of my life with that I have almost exclusively reserved for that person. I know in my heart that I will always reserve a special place for that person but when the respect is gone and things have been said or things have been refrained from being said then the end is the only avenue that is left. I will let time lead this to its end. A heart needs a little time to heal and I am going to allow that to happen. R.I.P friendship.
Self doubt/hate is over. These things have come to an end. I have to believe in the talent that God gave me. He also tells us that we don't have to make room for our gift but our gift will make room for us. That means that what the Lord has ordained in me will be done in His name and the correct roads will be available to me.
This being said, everything works to the good so even if some of my situations may seem to be a negative one there is always a positive that can be found. I am on a constant search for the positive and I do a pretty good job of keeping that focus. I encourage all of my friends and family to do the same and search for the positivity.
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