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This holiday has been a very good one. I had a very good time hanging out with my cousins and other family members this weekend. I truly love my family and enjoy them more now that I am older. We had tons of fun and hung out a bunch. This was terrific.

It has also been a weird time for me as I have come to realize a few things about myself and life in general. First thing I realized about myself is that guys find me attractive. For years I have had a complex about whether or not people found me attractive. This holiday has shown me that I am considered attractive and the only thing keeping me from dating and being in a relationship is me. Well, that is one of the things because the other thing is the fact that there is a guy that I really like and he and I have unfinished business. We have so much history and we have a good time together. I know that we will have a great relationship if he could bring himself to get beyond his fear and look at the possibilities of having a great thing.

Unfortunately, nothing can last forever and though I am being patient and supportive of him I can no longer give him my undivided attention. He and I had a very long conversation and I have never tried to pressure him into anything as far as he and I are concerned. Because he and I have a history of finding each other and getting back with each other I had to let him know that there will not be a next time. I told him that when we are finished this time we will be totally done. There will be no more indecision. This was not a tactic to get a decision but a fact that needed to be said. It is a real and true statement.

Life is good and I know that that doesn't mean that there won't be some challenges and hard times during my good life.
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