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Road not traveled

December 2010 I was in a place in life where I was down but not out.  In that moment I was emotionally depressed and physically not at my best   I had never been in this place.  I knew i had to get out. 

Run don't walk.  That's what I told myself.  Because I am an avid reader I had read plenty of times that if you don't like something in your life then only you can change it.   Yep, that was a saying that I needed to figure out so I could make a change.  That meant more reading for me and then a lot of writing.

In the following year I was able to make me and different choices that would impact my life. At the age of 35 I had finally figured it out.  Wrong!

Sure I figured out that I needed to make different choices but then I unknowingly became complacent.  That isn't what I wanted.  It just so happened that I was settling in to a few roles that was unfamiliar to me.   I threw myself in to those roles completely.

I love those roles and I am good at all of them.  I have been crushing it.  Now I have once again decided I will have to make choices in my life that will direct me in the fulfilling direction.   Of course my current roles will continue to be my top priority as I have young kids to care for and a husband to love on.  I am proud of myself with these accomplishments.  Next up. ...?

I know what I want for myself and now my choices will once again, have to be ones I have not made before. I am good with myself so I am prepared to step out of my comfort zone.  I will encourage myself and push myself through the inevitable blood, sweat and tears. 

I encourage everyone to do what makes them happy.  If you are unhappy figure it out and make choices that lead to your happiness. I'm so excited and scared simultaneously,  to take a new journey.  That's how I know it's worth doing.

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  1. AnonymousApril 14, 2018 at 5:43 AM

    I love your writings. When I read them I can relate all to well. You give me inspiration to be me.

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  2. Sybil Nicole September 6, 2018 at 2:21 AM

    Oh, thank you so much I appreciate your words. In real life I had to fight hard to be heard and I love that my words inspires you. God is love! Thank you

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