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Betrayal

If you look up the definition of words you may find that what you thought was the meaning of a word is totally different from its actual meaning.  I love words!  I love learning new words and discovering their meaning. 

I am having an extremely hard time in my life right now.  The more I try the harder things get.  Yesterday I was speaking with one of my cousins and I began telling her my feelings.  Though I never used the word betray with her I was up early tossing and turning.  This was due to a part of my current hard times.  Well the word betray continued to move around in my mind.  Finally I said let me look up the definition of this word.

This word that seems to only be used in extreme cases of dishonesty and disloyalty.  Because the only time I hear or read that word is under extreme conditions I thought that would be part of the definition.  The definition I always worked with in my mind is extreme dishonesty/disloyalty.  So imagine my shock when I found that was an untruth.

Betray, like most other words, when looking up the definition you will find several meanings.  The one that really stood out to me was

to disappoint the hope or expectations of. That stood out because it hit the nail on the head of how I am feeling. The other reason I loved this particular meaning is because there's nothing extreme about it. Being betrayed or th act of betraying another person is so simple and basic. We have all been in the position of being betrayed or of betraying someone according to this definition. This is what is currently happening in my life, a betrayal. Plenty of hopes and expectations are being disappointed and after evaluating this word and my life, I have come to realize that the only thing extreme about betrayal is that is most likely only done to those closest to you!

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  1. AnonymousJuly 27, 2011 at 10:02 AM

    Sybil I know exactly what you are taking about. Recently I feel like everytime I turn around I'm being betrayed.I have so much hope and expectations that people will genuinely do the right thing by me, however I keep being wrong.

    Your family and even friends will always betray you, and occasionally you will do it to yourself.This really hit home for me. Thank you for your messages.I always get something out of them.

    I have come to realize that I need to put all that hope and expectation in my heavenly father for he is truly the only one that will never betray me.

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