I am at a point where I am exponentially confused with love and life. I am unsure about the decision that I made and whether or not it was a good one. I have a friend that is a guy. We have been friends for almost half of my life. I will try to not to bore anyone with all of the details but there came a time, in the recent past, where we had a big argument and stopped speaking to each other.
For about 4 months, I really missed my friend and didn't like my life without him in it. So I began to pray about this situation. As the answers came I realized that I had to reach out to him and let him know that I want him back in my life. I called and we were back together again like nothing had happened with us. Well, as it would turn out I began to see him in a slightly different light.
The light was a more romantic one and I felt that he too was seeing me in a different light. His actions began to change so I watched him for a bit and prayed about what I should do. Finally, I decided I needed to tell him how I truly felt so I did--well sort of. Instead of telling him face to face I wrote him a letter and left it in his house so he could find it when he got home from work. This is were I get confused.
He still calls and wants to hang out but no mention directly of the letter I left. Well I understand that he may be a little stand0ffish about us getting further involved because if it doesn't work out does that mean we can never go back to being friends? I like it the way Drake said it in Un-thinkable; it is like a picture it would be nice if we just take it. You never really know how beautiful and wonderful something can be if you don't give it a try. Fear doesn't get you anywhere. I haven't felt this way about anyone in a long time and I know he feels the same for me, in my heart of hearts, I know but he is letting the fear of another failed relationship (he is divorced) and the fear of losing our friendship guide him instead of his seeing how beautiful it will be for the two of us to be together.
I hope he lets his fears go and looks to see how beautiful it will be!
For about 4 months, I really missed my friend and didn't like my life without him in it. So I began to pray about this situation. As the answers came I realized that I had to reach out to him and let him know that I want him back in my life. I called and we were back together again like nothing had happened with us. Well, as it would turn out I began to see him in a slightly different light.
The light was a more romantic one and I felt that he too was seeing me in a different light. His actions began to change so I watched him for a bit and prayed about what I should do. Finally, I decided I needed to tell him how I truly felt so I did--well sort of. Instead of telling him face to face I wrote him a letter and left it in his house so he could find it when he got home from work. This is were I get confused.
He still calls and wants to hang out but no mention directly of the letter I left. Well I understand that he may be a little stand0ffish about us getting further involved because if it doesn't work out does that mean we can never go back to being friends? I like it the way Drake said it in Un-thinkable; it is like a picture it would be nice if we just take it. You never really know how beautiful and wonderful something can be if you don't give it a try. Fear doesn't get you anywhere. I haven't felt this way about anyone in a long time and I know he feels the same for me, in my heart of hearts, I know but he is letting the fear of another failed relationship (he is divorced) and the fear of losing our friendship guide him instead of his seeing how beautiful it will be for the two of us to be together.
I hope he lets his fears go and looks to see how beautiful it will be!
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